traction reaction

nina came in to town last night, i think it might be about a year+ since i saw her last. today kaysie, birdie, nina, ryan and i went to publix and got caught stealing subs. the guy was an asshole, we walked away, end of story. i came back home and read this camus book that i got bored with a while ago. nothing really changed with that, i don't understand how the book won him a noble prize because he's an amazing author, and that book does not do him justice. i once again got bored with it and started on my "mood board" project. i don't really know what else to add, so i think i'm done, i just have to make some uglay face on him and then it will be done. check it out:


other things have been nice. i'm not used to not feeling lonely or sad all the time, it's good because i was so numb to it, that it never really effected me emotionally. it just was a constant drain on my mind, but now it's gone and i feel normal - whatever that means. although, i am pretty apprehensive because the girl that has my heart right now (very tightly, i might add) and who's been bringing me all of this contentment, is going to be gone in about a month or so. i wish it was easier for me to not get ridiculously attached to the person i'm dating. i'm too controlled by my emotions and it sucks. i'm really really not looking forward to her move, but it's too predictable i guess.
this will be the second girl that was absolutely wonderful in every way and will come to an end because of distance...awesome.