lately there's been an intense amount of apprehension flowing around my head. i just think that i inherently have a wish for things to go right, but this mindset which over powers that, telling me that everything will inevitably go wrong. it's put me in a mode of constantly expecting to be let down, which has held true a majority of the time.
i'm just caught in the middle of it constantly, but lately it's been much more intense. it's making me feel pretty awful. i wish i could just unconditionally accept all the shit life throws at me but know how to detach myself from the problems emotionally.