my body has been treated like shit lately. underslept, underfed, dehydrated, terrible diet, massive amounts of alcohol, emotional stress. it's an amalgamation of things which is now starting to catch up with me. it's really surprisng that i haven't been sick yet, vitamins are the only thing saving me at this point i think. i've been waking up feeling really really sad every morning for obvious reasons, but it sucks to have that on top of every muscle in your body feeling tight/sore. my back feels like i'm constantly wearing a 30 pound bag or something. i know a majority of this is solely because of the amount i've been drinking lately. i just want to be drunk all the time so i don't have to keep thinking, but that method has been working less and less. i have this amazing inherent ability to get totally depressed at anytime, i'm really good at it. i just want it to pass - this is sad but it's happening.