i hate the holidays.
just throwing that out there.
last night was a good experience...kindof.
my bike is really nice now, everything works real good and it's much more fun to be on, so i had this intense urge to ride, but no one to do it with. i think i'm getting better at accepting the fact that i will inevitably be alone/lonely for a large majority of my life. i guess i should work on appreciating the times i get to escape it, rather than dwelling on being consumed by it. easier said than done.
so back to last night - i started off from lyle's, went to drunken monkey, food/coffee/socialize, rode back to jake's house with him, saw off birdie & zach on their date (awww), went back to around stardust area to get narcotics for zach, didn't happen, got a 12 pack, rode all over orlando while consuming said 12 pack. i ended up drinking on the roof of this building real close to downtown for a good while. it was nice being able to watch everything happen from a distance. watch people go about their nightly adventures, evading their discontent. i love making up scenarios/situations while people watcing. it's probably one of my favorite things to do, obviously funner with another person, but it's alright. i forgot how much i enjoy drinking out in public places, things got really nostalgic, got very sad, obviously. it made me miss a lot of things, made me miss a certain person (very much), and it made me miss going on aimless rides like that.
also, i hate how much i have to rely talking to a fucking diary, rather than talking to a person.
it really does a lot for feeling lonely. (ha.)
today: eating soup, bike riding, reading, lonesome.
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I used to do that with my dad in the bridge over church st when it was an Olive Garden - making up stories about the people's lives who were walking around. It was really fun but I feel like now my stories about people when I look at them is, "They're dumb.", "They suck.", or "Eww."
yeah i'm the same way, but that's too easy because that's kinda the way i feel about all people most of the time. so it's like a challenge to (hypothetically) give them a little more credit and make up sort of semi-legitimate story about them. it's usually more fun when there's more than one person doing stuff or talking about something - make up a conversation/argument and a back story.
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