over it

2008 was a piece of shit and a lot of bad things happened. i'm not anymore hopeful for 2009, but i feel kind of excited about it. only because i can't really imagine things getting much worse anymore. the past two+ years or so have been the worst yet and all the negative emotions i've experienced have been to the most extreme. dealt with death of a family member, psychiatric counseling, heartbreak, backstabbing, betrayal, being used, being lied to, being ignored, being broke, going to jail, being on probation, breaking a limb, losing close friends, being generally discontent, etc. i hate to jinx myself, which i probably will, in saying i can't imagine anything making me feel worse than experiencing those things has left me feeling. i'll be moving out since i'll be in school longer than expected. it will be a good feeling to know that when i move out of that residence, it will be out of florida, and i can forget about all of this for good. forgetting is something i've been having a hard time with recently. i wish it was easier for me to forget/turn my back on people like i've experienced. i kind of feel like an idiot for ever thinking things were more than they were.